That Four Letter Word



We all talk and think about it all the time. I don’t care who you are. Even is you want to be alone you are choosing to love yourself and other parameters to your life.

Personally, I hate it. I’ve been through shit. A lot. Nothing I tell people. Nothing that I use against people or to gain anything for myself. But I have been through shit people couldn’t imagine. Some people think it’s so terrible, but to me, I am an awesome, strong, aware and intelligent human because of it. I wouldn’t erase my past ever, because now I am me.

Anyways I seem to have my eyes on someone and we have been spending a lot of time together. I always tell myself never get close to people and then do, but I have also as of recent years gotten to spend time with some of the BEST guys in the entire. world. And now this guy, he is the best too. So respectable and accepting of what I want, so kind, and also in need of a road map, especially in dealing with someone as intense, intelligent and in depend I am. (III; I like it.)

I have to just keep telling myself to not know everything. But anyway, I say all this as I realize I haven’t posted in a while, and I also kind of just want to. Nevertheless. Cheers, it’s Monday, I have so much work to do after this weekend.

Many blog posts this week to come!



Let’s talk about this word. EMPOWERMENT. People use it loosely and not enough. I believe it is a force of a word that fuels you to create your world. It is to create your own strength in life, work, love, spirit and everything that makes up oneself.

Too many people walk around doubting themselves and I believe this is a travesty. (one of my favorite words, btw.)

I have had my fair share of low life moments and feeling as though you are nothing and useless, but along the way of becoming who I really am and not wanting to change that for anything, I have learned a few things.

One of the biggest things I have learned is that people are never thinking what you think they are. No one invests so much thought into the minor details that you can see in yourself. So move on. Do not dwell in your thoughts an do not allow another person’s glare or movement, because half the time, people are in their own head thinking about their own problems.

Once you can get over this, you have so much time to be happy. SO MUCH TIME. You can spend the entire day working on positivity and selflessness. Being good to yourself mentally and physically in the best way is empowerment. You don’t realize how little bad things affect you until you give the good things a true and honest try.

Eating healthy and working out is one of the first steps to empowerment. Now everyone can bitch and yell that they want to eat bad and they don’t care if they are fat and unmotivated… you aren’t being the very best you can be. The human body was not made to eat synthetic and processed things. The body was not made to sit and compound fat. It was made to work, improve the world, see the beauty of life and to have the capability to travel across the world, dance, make love and to provide your mind with a vessel to accomplish greatness.

Going full force one hundred percent at your work and school, whatever it is you do will also allow you to be the happiest you. Go above and beyond. Prove that you are better then the others and that you stand out. Not to be better, but for yourself. Think of ideas and innovations that will be recognized and never be scared to be assertive and dominant.

{To the ladies: I have been called a very intense and controlling person many a times. It is true that men can get away with it more so than women, but never allow that to stop you. Be as strong and confident as a that ‘man’. Shying away will only deter people from listening to you.}

Nothing in this world should ever allow you to feel inferior nor should you allow it. Make a Power Playlist for when you are down. Listen and take breaths and remember that the key to happiness is embettering yourself. Stay present in the moment, and give the people that deserve your time the time, and never ever think you cannot do anything. Because that’s just a bullshit excuse.

There are NO excuses while building your empire.

I will leave you with this quote by my favorite author. And to you all as usual… Cheers, Bitches!

“You can, you should, and if you’re brave enough to start, you will.”

Stephen King, On Writing: A Memoir of the Craft




“To laugh often and much,
to win the respect of intelligent people
and the affection of children,
to earn the appreciation of honest critics
and endure the betrayal of false friends,
to appreciate beauty,
to find the best in others,
to leave the world a bit better,
whether by a healthy child,
a garden patch,
or a redeemed social condition,
to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived…

this is to have succeeded.”

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

A great quote by a great man. I hold Emerson as a great philosophy. Independent and smart. I truly believe this is how to live your life.

Progressive Injury?


I have been in a very feelsy mood recently, and for those of you who are ravers you know exactly what I mean. Love, happiness, peace and a weird constant feeling of goosebumps. Now I am very picky about my Progressive House music, but there are some songs that move me to great places.

I have injured my back (ugh, herniated disc), so I have been listening to Progressive all day improving my playlist and also just listening as I do homework. This post is my happy playlist. Very much so inspired by my best friend Corey who I could not live without. Probably one of the best people in my life, very crazy, a chemist, and a really good freaking friend. In his words “Bitch I hope the fuck you do, you be a dead son of a bitch, I tell you dat.”

This pretty much explains our relationship, a weekend we partied in Connecticut with our friends, very illogical things happened that weekend.



Anyway, here is my Progressive House musts. Very good and feelsy. I personally love them all and have very special moments attached to many of these songs. They have gotten me through a time or two. Including right now.

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I could really go on a rant about my injury, herniated discs, how it’s definitely all my father’s DNA at fault and how to help, but it won’t for a couple of reasons.

1. Never treat your back yourself. Your spine is PRECIOUS. It allows me to run, dance and do all the things I love. TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR. See a chiropractor, and for those minor muscle injuries, a licensed massage therapist can really do the trick.

2. I am using this time to pop and adderall and blow through some readings and physics homework.

3. I am trying to not enrage myself that I am a helpless lump on our couch right now.

Enjoy music fanatics. 🙂

Cheers, bitches!